if it kills me

Jason Mraz's "If it kills me"- brought to my attention courtesy bf. Also showed me this Youtube video where they used the song in "So you think you can dance"

The song's good enough on its own merit. But paired with those dancers- amazing!

"Well, you and I

We go carrying on for hours on end

We get along much better

Than you and your boyfriend"

Yeah, right. Have never hankered for a friend who's in a relationship with someone else- thank Heavens. Have never really had a huge crush or imagined myself in love with a close friend either. Wonder how it feels like - the hope that they will find out and reciprocate, and the fear that they will find out and it would end the friendship

"How long can i go on like this

Wishing to kiss you

Before I rightly explode?

Well, this double life I lead isn't healthy for me

in fact it makes me nervous

If I get caught I could be risking it all

Cause baby there's a lot that I'd miss

In case Im wrong"

A quandary. Reveal and you could either win all or lose all. Because friendships seldom remain the same when feelings are revealed to be not-so-platonic. And maybe its better to let things stay as they are, cause having his/her friendship is far far better than losing her/ him outright. But then, there will be the niggling feeling of "What if?"

"If I should be so bold

I'd ask you to hold my heart in my hand

I'd tell you from the start how Ive longed to be your man

But I never said I would

I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again"

That said, I can't really relate to the song. Am just happy I found myself with a bf who's one of my closest friends as well as my love. And that's why I can relate to the refrain:

"I'll find a way to you if it kills me

If it kills me"

311, 33

My guy introduced me to 311. There are influences of rock and ska in their music... okayyy.. enough of the technical stuff. I don't really know what genre is which. Rock pretty much encompasses it all for me :D My musical style is strictly- I listen, I like.

Now, "Amber"... I don't really get the lyrics. But the music is so mellow, it kinda makes me want to listen to it while mellowing out on the ol' amber liquid. Hmmm, must do that sometime.

Brainstorm,

take me away from the norm...

Amber is the color of your energy

Shades of gold displayed naturally

you ought to know what brings me here

Glide through my head, blind to fear.

Another great listen by the band is "Come original". more peppy, but nevertheless brilliant.

Next stop. 33 by The Smashing Pumpkins. Reminiscent of the time I was grounded during the days when tape cassettes still ruled. And I rewound and played and rewound this song over and over again, feeling like shit.

And for a moment I lose myself

Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world.

I've journeyed here and there and back again

But in the same old haunts I still find my friends

Mysteries not ready to reveal

Sympathies I'm ready to return.

John Mayer's love- gone -wrong songs

Once upon a time, her 'body was a wonderland'... then like all things inevitably do, their love grew old and they soon find themselves "Slow Dancing in Burning Room"...

Its not a silly little moment

Its not the calm before the storm

this is the deep and dying breath of

this love that we've been working on.

So the blame games escalated, each blaming the other for the demise of their love:

I'll make the most of all the sadness,

you'll be a bitch because you can.

You try to hit me just to hurt me

so you left me feeling dirty

cos you don't understand.

And they put up this front of still being together, still loving, but they both know that

We're going down, and you can see it too

We're going down, and you know that we're doomed,

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room.

And so they finally break up, just to make up again, then break up... till he finally gets fed up and say "All we ever do is say Goodbye"

Just when i had you off my head

Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed

You say you wanna try again

but I've tried everything but giving in.

Ahh, love.. don't you just hate it when the past refuses to stay in the past, and yet doesn't really want your present? And ol'John feels the burn too..

I love you more than songs can say

But I cant keep running after yesterday...

Why you wanna break my heart again

Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye.

So John says, enough is enough!! And he issues an ultimatum: "Friends, lovers or nothing"

Only when we want is not a compromise

I'll be pouring tears into your drying eyes...

Friends, lovers or nothing,

There can only be one.

Friends, lovers or nothing,

We can never be an in-between,so give it up.

Aaaannnd... nothing!!!! That's what he got!! So now he finds himself "Perfectly lonely"

Had a little love, but i spread it thin.

Falling in her arms and out again,

Made a bad name for my game around town.

Tore up my heart and shut it down..

Nothing to do, nowhere to be

a simple little kind of free.

nothing to do, no one but me,

and that's all I need

I'm perfectly lonely

cos I don't belong to anyone

nobody belongs to me..

And life goes on for him. Sure, he misses her, but he's had enough of their 'heartbreak warfare' with its 'drop his name, twist the knife, watch my face, as i pretend to feel no pain' overtones. But...it's still good... He makes music out of heartcrap, indulges his twitter addictions and no one bugs him about it.

And this is not to say

there never comes a day

I'll take my chances and start again.

And when i look behind

On all my younger times

I'll have to thank the wrongs

That led me to a love so strong.

Yayyyy!!! Go John!!

I love your lyrics, your sleepy voice, your bluesy guitar playing, your curls, your lips...

Eh, this is all about his music, of course.

A7X- Woot Woot!!!!

Could'nt name a particular song because they have sooo many good ones. Yeah, some aof them are a little too 'heavy' for me, but here's the few that i really love.

Unholy Confessions:

"Nothing hurts my world,

Just affects the ones around me,

When sin's deep in my blood,

You'll be the one to fall...

I Wish I could be the One,

The one who won't care at all,

But being the one on the stand,

I know the way to go"

And the video where they focus on the fans more than them selves *RESPECT* . Supposedly about the fall of Adam... very very nalh bon theng!!

A Little Piece of Heaven:

A very sick song with a sick video which i absolutely love! About stabbing someone who laughs at your love, and then that person comes back from the grave, and they eventually love each other for eternity...

"And a word to the wise,

When the fire dies,

You think its over but its only just begun,

But baby, don't cry,

You had my heart,

At least for the most part,

Cos everybody's gotta die sometime.."

Its not the full version. There's all those stabbings, Sex with corpses and mass killings at a wedding. so...

I won't see you tonight (part 1):

A very dark song. About suicide, apparently.

Cry alone, Ive gone away,

No more nights, no more pain,

Ive gone alone, took all my strength,

Ive made the change,

I won't see you tonight....

Building up inside of me

A place so dark, so cold

I had to set me free.

Don't mourn for me,

You're not the one that placed the blame

As bottles call my name

I won't see you tonight.."

*Sigh* A van nalh tak emmmm!!! For my dark, dark nights... but that don't mean i get suicidal :p

I love em all, I'll just mention the others.. Sawi vek peih tohlo.. Unbound (The wild ride), MIA, Brompton Cocktail, Until the End, Afterlife, Almost Easy, Gunslinger..GUNSLINGER!!, Warmness on the Soul (THE love song), Dear God (obviously), Beast and the Harlot, Scream...aaa, a tam mai..

and yeah, Seize the Day:

Here's the video, not because i LOOOOVE the song, but because they look soooooo goooooddd in it!!

Or not! Its apparently banned in India bcos of its content..WTF!! Here's Afterlife, an hmeltha thau thau!! But the Seize the Day video... And Synyster's guitar solo....*swoon*

breath- Breaking Benjamin

Another great song, comes as a close second to "Creep". I love it, my guy also loves it. And i discovered it first!! Though he did come up with their live video, which is an absolute must-watch..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SmFMipZ3VwA

This will be all over soon

Pour the salt into the open wound,

Is it over yet, in my head?

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left,

I know that i can't fight the fire in your eyes

I'm going all the way, get away, please...

...I'm waiting, I'm fading,

Realise, start fighting...

You take the breath right out of me,

Left a hole where my heart should be,

You gotta fight just to make it through

Cos I will be the death of you"

i listen to the mp3 version when I'm feeling peeved, moody or just plain angry. Music is such a great mood enhancer, no matter what you're feeling, it just intensifies it.

When i want to just LOVE the song, i watch the live video. I want to be at the concert too!!!

their music is goooood.. Diary of Jane, Until the End, Forget It... but Breath tops the list - tops!!

Creep- Radiohead

Someday when i grow old and senile, I resolve to be sane for just a few minutes everyday so that I can take the time to listen to the songs I loved, and remember the reasons why I loved them. Obviously I will not be able to remember them, so I'll have to pay the nurses at the nursing home to immediately show me this blog so that I can remember, and start singing again, for just those few minutes of lucidity.

my current favourite song since the past six years:

"Creep" by Radiohead.

the video can't be embedded, so here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFkzRNyygfk&feature=fvst

ooohh..the absolute psychoness of the lyrics, and the way the music and the tune accompany the psycho lyrics so perfectly.

"i don't care if it hurts,

i wanna have control,

i want the perfect body,

i want the perfect soul.

i want you to notice

when i'm not around,

you're so fucking special,

I wish i was special"

I get this picture of a nondescript guy watching a girl and he wants her, but he's scared to make a move, and he slowly creeps towards her, kinda stalks her a bit...

the best part is, as the verse starts, the slow and relentless guitar beats mirrors how he watches her, and silently shadows her... and then he sings, "so fucking special..", the guitar gives this short, sharp shred that mirrors him going over the edge..

and then the song moves into the part where he bawls..

"she's running out, run, run, run, ruuuuuunnn"

absolutely climactic!!!

you feel his nonentity-ness (new word!), and his weird vibes sooo clearly!

and then it moves once again into that slow, relentless beat again

but i'm a creep,

i'm a weirdo,

what the hell am i doing here,

i don't belong here, i don't belong here...

PERFECTION!

Korn n The Cure also did amazing covers of the song, but radiohead's is the best! so many songs, but i always keep coming back.. love..!!!